Fuck Bitches.

2011-04-15T02:52:00.002+08:00

What happen ?

Like, seriously. Nothing is the same anymore.

I'm fucking schooless and pathetic.

God, please. Give me more strength.

Im blessed to able to wake up every morning.

God, help me.

2011-04-15T02:39:00.003+08:00

Okay, so im crying like a fucking baby right now. And, i seriously dont know who to turn to. I just need a long friendly hug. Everything is falling apart. I dont know this feeling is just indescribable.

I just wanna cry.

Ttyl

2010-07-27T23:46:00.002+08:00

Sorry this blog is no longer in use. I only update my private blog, sorry. But, im not gonna delete my blog due to memories;)

You

2010-07-17T23:42:00.001+08:00

I don't know why, i could just cry now. Im going crazy, seriously. I need you now. :(

i HOPE

2010-07-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

I SERIOUSLY FEEL USELESS IN THIS WORLD, LIKE SERIOUSLY LA.

IMISSYOU.

Happy?

2010-07-05T16:38:00.003+08:00

Kay, somebody pls try baking this cake! I really wanna try. :D

First day of school was bullshit. Won't say why. Anyways, now i've bought the colour paper and print out picture, i can start printing and stuff. I hate having cliques of friends. Anything can go wrong anytime. Whatever, bye.

IVE CREATED FORMSPRING www.formspring.com/hidayahishk Go ask question:D
BYE

Pls

2010-07-03T04:52:00.000+08:00

I WANNA DIE ! I SWEAR I DO! :(

I wanna die

2010-07-03T01:51:00.002+08:00

Okay, i have no life. Seriously.
I made formspring. Cause, ive got nothing to do.
And i've finish watch 90210 season 1 and 2.
And Couger town season 1
And Secret life of the American teenager 1
and now watching season 2.
SERIOUSLY I HAVE NO LIFE :(
Im so sad. Bye la.

ALAMAK, HOW

2010-06-23T02:09:00.006+08:00

WHY DOES THIS CYCLE ALWAYS HAPPEN?

______MISS YOU LIKE FUCK

____________SICK AND TIRED, STOP CALLING_____________________ LEAVE YOU A MSG

TALK ON THE PHONE FR HOURS

________________________________(CLOCK-WISE ROTATION)

As in, i miss you and when i get you i dont want you.

I'm so tired of this la.

HAHA

2010-06-23T01:43:00.003+08:00

My Mom use to ask me when i cry at night

"Why, what happen? Which guy broke your heart? I'm sure you'll find someone better"

Well, till now. I'm yet to find someone.

Okay, fuck that.
And there still project to be done and a script to memorize.

Not sure what im suppose to do fr the project. Do some scrapbook of my life and write what i've learn in my or something. I don't know. Gotto start doing them, schools starts on the 5 of july.

Am i worth dying for ? HAHA, kay stupid random question.

Imya!:( ;

Rieyn
Natasha
Farah
N.Bella
Yayah
AISHAH
Nanah
Aqil.B
Zulfadli
Khairi
DEBRA
MISUARI
Aman.
O.R
Shafiq
BERWIN!

Think that's about it

Omg, there was some UN expected names up there. But, i do miss them. I MISS THE GOOD OLD TIMES, I DO.

BYE

Ohhhh

2010-06-23T01:41:00.002+08:00

HAHA! It CAUGHT MY EYE!
Pls, dont think differently of me.

HEHE

2010-06-20T20:08:00.002+08:00

OMG! I SWEAR MY BLOG IS SUPER DEAD.
Im sorry but i'm too lazy to update.

I've gain weight! ALOT, everyone is telling me to lose weight. URGH!
STRESS SIA! TSK.

Currently having my holiday now. Finally.
But theres project to be done. SUMPAH MALAS!
Im just super lazy.

Recently went to Kemaman, Terungganu.
Had wedding to attend. Didnt regret going.
HAD FUN(:

And im super sleepy. Boohoo:(

I LOVE HIM(: GUESSSSSSS WHOOO?!?!

TIME FLIES

2010-05-26T18:38:00.003+08:00

Okay, sorry. I've been very busy and super lazy to update this blog. I dont even know who reads my blog :/

School been SUPER GREAT(:

Met Natasha recently, sleptover since both our parent weren't in Singapore.
Met Rieyn too, like FINALLY LA! OMG, i swear i miss her like fuck.
I think if i ever lost this 2 people, i think i just can dieeee.

YOU MEAN A WORLD TO ME(:

P.s Sorry i cancel plans fr today. Im really sorry. I've got no money now. SORRY ! :(
Next week, i promise.

Met Yayah Hannah and the rest on Monday night to celebrate Mym's birthday. I miss everyone so much, like seriously. I want my secondary school life back. WHERE'S MY SC? Anyways, we had a blast catching up. (:

I love my class OR ROCKS(:
Will post a picture of them soon okay(:

Im happy (:
Only hate times when im having my period:(
FUCK, which just came.

Choco

2010-05-09T21:34:00.002+08:00

I hate moodswings. Seriously man .

1 min in happy girl next thing you know

i just wanna cry and die.

WTF ?

I am very weird or am i not the only one ?

Tsk .

My name is Choco. I dont hate people if theres no reason to it .

Only if you're being an ass , i'll be an ass too. If you're nice im nice too.

Dont call me a bitch cause i show you what a bitch i can be (:

Lalalalala~ Im just so happy now. I dont know why.

Hehe, byebye(:

NATASHA

2010-05-07T22:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY.

Sorry didnt post this ytd. You know what happen;)

Wow , 17 eh ? One more year eh , than go clubbing with me tau . DONT FORGET ! Time flies ohhh sooo fastt. Huhu :( I miss the old time. Times when we were SUPER FUCKING SLIM:( I WANT MY HOT SEC 2 BODY MANS. OMG , well we been through ALOT for 6/7 years? I hope this friendship will last long till we both get married and have children, hehe (: We live overseas okay? HAHA, macam paham. Dah dah . All i wanna say is

i love you natasha(: hehe, kisskiss.

Doing that thing you do.

2010-05-05T17:18:00.005+08:00

Malas, i swear.

Grateful

2010-05-04T02:02:00.002+08:00

What happen when we die ?

Will it hurt?

How are we gonna die ?

Question that cant be answered .

I dont wanna think and scare myself to sleep .

Life is wonderful . Love life. Be grateful that you're actually

alive (:

Ilovemylife, dontyou ?

Misses

2010-05-03T01:46:00.002+08:00

Useless webcam . Amelia me daddy(:

We'll see who need who (:

Amelia is back in perth and i truly miss her to hell.

I miss coming back from school and hear her say

"Hello Kakak Chocoooo(: " and hug me . Damn it .

We'll see her soon (: Baby boy is on the wayyyyyyy!

Another boy in the family . I love my family.

I love everyone ! I love MYSELF (:

Been karaoke with family alot lately. Funnnnn(:

SHA RIEYN , KARAOKE SOON OKAY ?

LOVELOVE.

Gotto start focusing on school !

Imisseveryonesomuch.

UPUB , never thought i would but i do .

Ciao.

We're backkkkk

2010-04-30T01:12:00.002+08:00

My hair is ugly :( **Ignore the bacin face, thankyou(:

If you're dumb , its black .

I didnt dye it black but dark brown

But it came out as black as BLACK!

Fuck , i want my old hair .

2010-04-23T15:39:00.003+08:00

I love studying . I do .

I hate School. I do .

I love my friends , i don't know.

Feeling sick as ever.

WALK HOME FROM SCHOOL ! wtf

Wanted to know how far it is. And its not that bad.

Feeling lonely and just wanna be alone , shall just walk home .

Went karaoke with family yesterday and it was a blast i tell ya.
The room was fucking small, omg.
Everyone was singing having fun . Jumping,dancing it was like a CLUB .
And parents were around. Haha , well my dad join in with the dancing and everythng .
It was fun . People keep peeping in our room since the door was transparent .
It was awesome. Never had an outing with family this side till this late. When home around 2.
And today we'll be having a wedding dinner . So full day ahead. Siap !
Ciao(:

Old days.

2010-04-23T15:31:00.002+08:00

I don't want us to fall apart.

I don't want to be with people i dont like.

I want us back , like it was.

Even though its different :(

FUCK SCHOOL.

Shitty

2010-04-20T15:59:00.000+08:00

Gotto start running~

Dont be an ass

2010-04-20T00:39:00.005+08:00

Kak Julie's wedding was a blast. Everyone was SUPER tired. Took many picture.

Uncle Pai made a slide show of all the picture taken . And everybody was complaining that in every 3 picture theres at least my face in it . Haha , well what to do . The camera loves me (:

I miss Sha and Rieyn :( Bye . Gotto wake up at 6 tomorrow. Cb. Nights(:

Those fake smiles.

2010-04-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

I still want my old life back :'(

Nothing is right .

I'm softer than ever .

What's going on ?

Lalaland

2010-04-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

It takes time (:

Kak Julie's wedding coming soon . This weekend to be exact.
So im gonna be VERY BUSY (: Haha , Im excited.
Wah , redlight coming. Bare with my emotions (:
Imy :(

BIG is beautiful

2010-04-14T21:06:00.006+08:00

Hello , i love this picture ! No edit no nothing uh . And i NEVER edit my pictures.

Im fat , and i love it (:

School been , great (: Made friends with lovely people . And Shahrul is in my class, fuck yeah (:

Havent start studying yet. But books have been given out , and its like CPA text book . Wow.

What a waste of money . But its okay(:

Gotto dye my hair black , well im dying it dark brown . Since dying it Jet black is a sin (:

I miss everyone , i miss 4NT10 . I miss SC, i miss Drama:(

I miss secondary school life.

LALALA

2010-04-10T22:55:00.002+08:00

School starting in 2 days . Wow .
Never thought the time would come.
Fuck, ive not been to school since October
And now im starting a new one.
Hope my brain still knows how to
funtion right .

I DONT WANNA GO SCHOOL :(

I do .

2010-04-10T22:50:00.003+08:00

I said what i had to say.
I told you not to say anythng if you had nothing to say .
But i was hoping you would .
Well, thats done.

2010-04-09T22:39:00.002+08:00

ILOVEYOUPEOPLE(:

Wtf, im sick . NATASHA LAA ! Virus being passed. Tsk .

Anyways , Aunty Na family and my sis went to KL fr a trip . So bed is all mine fr 3 days i think ?
So sha came by IN THE MORNING . Next thing you know , when i wake up she sleeping also . So i clean the house ate breakfast which dad bought clean the house somemore , watch tv Bathe and got ready . Left the house at 6 then bla bla bla . Haha. At night met Rieyn at Mac talk talk talk and head home.

My life's boring, Sorry. Will upload more pic soon (: Which can be found ALL in natasha's blog. But i shall only pick the nice ones of ME (: Hahahha. Bye .

Up above

2010-04-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

Nowadays, i feel that there's nothing fr me to say .

My life been the same, quit work.
School gonna start .
Loving my friends.

I just hope you'll realise one day . ((:

What she said.

2010-04-03T05:01:00.002+08:00

Maybe it was all meant to be.

Atuk , imy :(

2010-04-02T22:23:00.002+08:00

School gonna start soon , life sucks.

Been V.emotional nowadays .
With Natasha's story and all.
Sha , do know that he loves you very much
And all his asking fr is the best fr you.

Been thinking bout my late grandfather, since i work next to where to the old folks home is.
Tried my best not to cry in public . Its sucks though . I cnnt do anything but to pray fr the best fr him .

Memories flash back , times when i praised him and told him he look handsome and cute and ask fr money . And he'll give us some and he'll kiss us. The worst was when he was on the bed dead , and Aunty Na just reached singapore and ran to my dad and huged and cried. i dont know la. i miss him very much . I want him back in my life. Atuk , i love you very much . My prayers are with you . Ily . You're the best.

Never cried this much fr a very long time. Hope i could hug you fr the last time . But i guess its too late.

Rieyn(:

2010-03-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

Babe , i said this a MILLION TIMES already , I love you.
I want the best fr you.
CHOOSE YOUR DECISION WISELY okay ?
ILY MANY MANY MANY (:

Bestfriend

2010-03-26T01:12:00.000+08:00

Natasha, please TakeCare
iloveyou very the much.
Becareful love.

Up above

2010-03-25T13:10:00.002+08:00

I miss those days where i stargaze and forget everything
and be in my world alone .

Need to go stargaze more.

Memories will always be History.

Its better off.

2010-03-24T23:30:00.004+08:00

Rieyn and Sha, deal with it fr alittle longer eh? You know how my pms is. Ily(:
DONT HATE ME :(

Never thought it would last this long , really.
It sucks , the feeling of emptiness.

But, i have my two friends who made me realize how wonderful my life is. Thank you.

I think we're better of friends than CLOSE friends.
I really did love you H(: I did , and i dont regret trusting you.
You are a good friend indeed.

Love me

2010-03-22T17:26:00.003+08:00

Went Johor . It was Fun . Only the starting like blahhhh, boring . I didnt buy much , only 2 cute sleeping short 1 long silk polka dot sleeping pants . SUPER CUTE. And i bought , light purple eye shadow. I LIKE (: And lots of gum ? Haha. I think thats it.

Anyways, WE WENT KARAOKE.
Me and Sha had our own room fr an hour. ITS NOT ENOUGH. We sang our hearts out . We got irritated when the worker there keep walking pass our room peeping at the hole at the door. WTF MAN! We wanna sing in peace. It was fun la i must say. IF YOU POST ANY VIDEO , I WILL KILL YOU .

Last min got work tomorrow, but gonna end earlier than it does. Fuck.
Meeting the Usuals tomorrow.

imy(:

Bitch la

2010-03-19T23:20:00.003+08:00

I WENT SHOPPINGPPPP !

Bought alot :D Went to F21 , where else. Went with sis shop shop shop . Both went separate ways. I went to bugis after that to meet shirieyn.
I push Aside 60 fr makan and movie and stuff . So i was happy . Next thing you know i was bought something from a shop at Haji lane . The ring is SO nice :( Now im left with 42 now:( Very disappointed with myself fr not controlling myself.

Aslam was around talk talk talk , had FUN. Laughed my ass out ! (: Funnny uh that guy. Went home , blablabla.

I CANNT WAIT FR TOMORROW ! (: Going to Malaysia with A few Family and Sha will be around . Yay (:

Shirieyn : what am i going to do without you ?

Do nothing , cause im always gonna be with you .

Once again , i am not lesbian .

(:

2010-03-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

Wow, im SO HURT . Hahaha. Whatever manzx.

I don't believe i use to trust you .

Omg , im just speechless.

Its funny though what you trying to do .

Well, have fun aye doing whatever you're trying to do (:

SHIRIEYN , A is being APPROVE of me. HAHA. He asked me a favour. DAMN CUTE (:

So rieyn , be happy okay. And forget to tell you whats the motive of just now outing.

"No matter how hurt you are or losing friends or WHATEVER. We'll be here no matter what. You can always count on us . We are 24/7 open fr YOU(:"

I miss Perth so badly :( Can't wait fr Aunty na to come down on Kak julie's wedding !

OMG! HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT LA. But howwww? Hmm.

Well going gym is okay . But its Vhat i eat. Aiyoyoyo .

Next pay ; MOVIE with rieyn and a BAG! Fuck yeah .

Fuck what you're doing . And dont try to act like you any hotstuff or Bigfuck . Shitass.

Had enough

2010-03-13T16:41:00.002+08:00

I shall not be a fool to fall fr you and your traps again .

But if i do , im a dumb dumb fool.

Getting you out of my mind.

It hurts though.

Goodbye.

Trust me.

2010-03-12T22:35:00.003+08:00

IM HURT AND DISAPPOINTED.

Word by word , act by act all being acted out. Should have known .

And i will always stand by you Rieyn ,

NO MATTER WHAT. Ily (:

Never too late

2010-03-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

imys :(

It came back , that feeling . So i guess my period is coming too . So bare with it.

Sha Rieyn , sumpah imya sia. ALICE AND THE WONDERLAND 3D , Cannot vait(:

When to ITE fr registration and stuff. Blablablaa. I saw FIRDAUSSSSSS ! HAHA. Soo longg nver see. I MISS HIM LIKE FUCK SIA . What do you expect , 4 years of good friendship . LALA~
Saw others too. And Aky, my cousin . Anyways, i cant wait to start STUDYING(Seriously). And i can sooo wait to start school at ITE, if you know what i mean (:

Anyways, i feel that i , Nur hidayah , failed to practice what a PROPER muslim suppose to do .
And i swear, i feel bad. Watching this guys video really made me think and you know reflect myself. And he's not even a born Muslim, he's a convert in the USA. And his videos are good.
Www.youtube.com/ummahfilms .

Starting to learn alot in Madrasah , finally.

F U C K , you :D

Maybe

2010-02-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

Wah , im just waiting.
Are you trying to hint me something ? Hmm(:
And T, Just hoping one day you'll change fr good (:

Got my pay fr 2 week, LALALA, shopping la.
Bought Foundation Blusher Ring Necklace Shirt Notebook Eye shadow brush . I think , ya.
Shoe is next since parent aint gonna buy me one since i have money.
Treat Rieyn tadi , fulamak. Pokai la. Actually still have , hehehe(:

When lunch with Rieyn at LJS, simei(:
Both head to my place since She wanted to borrow my sister baju. Purple in colour, same colour as mine. Then she when to work. Then i was home , bored to death , head down to Haji lane and met rieyn at her work place. Then i realise , we both are wearing the same colour of baju, TO THE PEOPLE, like exact same colour . Bought baju and notebook frm her shop, PUNYE MAHALLL. Then head home together, people stared at us as if we're lesbian cause i hug her goodbye and because of the shirt colour. haha, IM AM NOT LES. Ily rieynn. HAHAHAHA!
Wtf.

Okay bye. Haha(:

Yet to be found

2010-02-24T18:43:00.002+08:00

Im back (:

Didnt feel right these few days. I was okay fr AWHILE , since ive talked it out with my love ones.
Which made me cry. Talk about EVERYTHING, when i say everything literally , EVERYTHING. My dirty little secret and stuff. So now, ive nothing to hide. Ily guys fr being there. RIEYN most, i told you EVERYTHING. Thanks fr being there when i needed you babe, i sayng you banyak banyak. And Hannah too, ehemEhem((: The rest also who sleptover . Ilya laa. I finally crack out from the shell and told ALOT .

And to YOU, idk la. You changed, its different , how? Idk , i just dont feel the same anymoree. And it kills me badly inside. Seriously, itis. And ive cry about, tsk. Thats how badly it feels.
Idk laa, maybe it hurts to see you moved on and i have yet too.

I CANNOT WAIT FR MARCH PICNIC , YAY YAY YAY.
I MAKE CHOCOLATE PUDDING EHHHHH(:

Loves, Chocs(:

Hopeless

2010-02-16T00:49:00.003+08:00

I DONT KNOW WHY I FEEL SO HELPLESS.
SO EMPTY ,
SO PATHETIC .
WHY ?
WHY AM I CRYING ? FUCK LAA. :'(
IWANTYOU
HERE.

Superb .

2010-02-04T13:09:00.003+08:00

Visit the drama club , and went to chill at coffee bean. Had a GREAT catch up with Yayah and Nanah . Omg , i miss them so much . And the drama club and SCs. I MISS OUT ALOT ! Hmm.
I MISS STUDYING , PLS. MY BRAIN IS DEAD. REALLYY DEAD. OMG, HELP.

As times flies, thing change ALOT. We all know notice but kept quite . As then i brought it up .

Hope things work out (: Monday.

Loves(:

Rainbows

2010-01-28T22:32:00.005+08:00

HELLO THERE ! (:

Im SUPER bored. Since im not schooling nor working . When out with sha ytd.
We were suppose to watch Ny ily. But we were late so went tamp to see if theres any movie
to watch and none were interesting fr me. So decided to makan then Sit around . Before heading off the tamp to sit around we bought NAIL POLISH . Again , yay yay ! (: Anyways, We when afgan Mac to sit and guess who i saw ... Yayah , Afiqul , Aslam and Humairah .
Normal routine Hugged yayah . Its been awhile since i last saw her. Talk to humairah and yayah . Bla bla bla. Then continue what i was doing with sha then head home around 9 plus.

YAYAH, I MISS YOU SIA !

SHIRIEYN SIDEK, WHEN AM I GOING TO MEET YOU ? Bile nak pergi the pizza thing ?

Shaaa, i want pics;) Sorry i didnt wanna watch My ex with you ! Not my kind of movie, sorry (:

Assalamuailakum (:

Days of our lives.

2010-01-26T00:01:00.004+08:00

Okay , Im finally updating my blog .

Hmmm,
You're lucky cause im really patient. If not ill be a bitch.
And thank god ily .

Anywhoooo, I finish watching Scrub season 1 to season 8 . Hell yeah , it wass gooooood.
Cried last few episodes. Goood show. Next, Glee season 1 . My dearly brother
downloaded (: Thank god. No need to wait till Every thursday .

HAVENT MET RIEYN AND SHA FOR A LONG LONG TIME.
Which is 1 week . Hmm, must meet up soon fr the pizza thingy (:
IMY ILY .

And i need MORE pictures.

Ite results are coming. On 27. Same as you Olevel student.
Not looking forward too. I seriously dont feel like schooling .
IVE NOT BEEN SCHOOLING SINCE October.
And im not working! YAY.
Lifeeeeees goood (:

FIRDAUSSS , Farah , Adi , Berwin , Drama club , SCs IFckingMYA !

Rollercoster.

2010-01-24T03:27:00.002+08:00

I've been having emotional ride these few days.

And it sucks. Help me , please.

Thing've changed.

2010-01-19T05:30:00.003+08:00

You just wont stop lying , now will you?
When will you ever realize?
I hate that i miss you alot. Tsk.

I miss my friends.

FINALLY met Rieyn and Sha after awhile.
Next, the pizza thingy or picnic. Yay(:
Still not schooling. Dont ask :D
And im lovingggg it :P.

I hate it when you give me attitude, A.

Can you?(:

2010-01-15T01:43:00.003+08:00

Take me out to watch the sunset.
View beautiful sicnery.
Plan a lovely picnic.
Watch the stars.

And tell me you love me.

Make me smile, will you ?

2010-01-13T23:55:00.003+08:00

Take me somewhere where i could just lye down and watch the clouds or stars.
Please, somebody.

Fantasy .

2010-01-10T01:49:00.003+08:00

I went to the GYM

Shock ?

So am i .

I was sweating like a pig. Hafiz was there to help me out, mind you his my brother.

I swear i didnt sweat that much for a long time.

Anyways , i went home fisrt and watch Up with mom and sis.
When i just finish toasting my bread , and sitting at the sofa

I only took 1 bite and Hafiz reach home.

H; Put that down

H; I said PUT THAT DOWN NOW

Me; *Sad face*

H; You wanna lose weight kan ? LISTEN TO ME.

Me; *Puts the bread down* Can i eat ?

H; You just ran and now you wanna eat ? This is how you become fat.

Me; Whatt , i lapar righttt?!

H; Take only 1 slice. The rest give to mama.

Mum; HAHA! PADAN MUKE PIGGY.

Me; Can i drink milo ? Gives sad face to Hafiz.

H; Ya and two more slice of bread. THATS IT.

Me;*Takes out 3 slice of plain bread*

Mum; Hafizzzz! DAYAH MAKAN ROTI LAGY

H; *Takes tw bread away* NO DAYAH !

Me; What the FUCK! You said i could eat 2 bread. This is only my first.

Me; *Run to the kitchen to fight fr my stomach* YOU SAID TWO, THIS IS ONLY 1.

H; No . Drink milo dah full.

Mum; HAHA, padan muke. Fatty fatty fatty .

Me; *Shows mum middle finger*

Yes , we are open with my parents.

Sad right ? I cant even eat now.

Well, i wanna lose weight right ?

Gotto do what i've gotto do .

Watched The proposal. Yes , i cried AGAIN.

Now watching Sleepless in Seattle, classic :D

You'll never notice will you ?

Stupid boy.

Ihy.

Hoping, Wishing, Praying.

2010-01-08T23:17:00.005+08:00

Met farah .
Went back to school to pass Lib book to zul .
And i cant return it, since its not mine.
Waste my bloody time.
Head to Tamp to have lunch
Bought new nail polish (((:
Head to Pasir ris to eat frozen yogurt.
Then head got home.

Then while eating some guy prank me. I swear , khai . FAIL. Simei maner ader Lib ? Tsk.
Then talk talk talk. Went home , met fira. Had a goood catch up (:

Bonding.

2010-01-05T14:01:00.003+08:00

Sleptover Sha house. Like old timeee. It felt good. I got nothing to hide from her. She knows EVERYTHING. Ya, Anyways. Shirieyn came in the morning at 7 plus. Made breakfast, slept. :P
Hahahahaha. Woke up , talk talk talk talk. Dad told me to get ready and stuff.

Went to Ehub. Eat at pastamania then we watched Old dogs .
Which was FUNNY. Like really funny. I laughed so hard me and sister hit each others head. Imagine that. HAHA. I can bet the person next to me thinks im crazy .

Now, im sick :( Huhu.

ba ba black ship
have you any wool ?
BORED.

Sitting home, doing nothing.

Thinking if i'll make it or not.

To hell with it

2010-01-03T23:45:00.004+08:00

Argh, why cant i live the way i want too? Tsk, get everything i want. Alaaa chocs. Dream on laaa. Tsk, fuck
Bye.

New chapter?

2009-12-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

Happy New Yearr(:

New year resolutions.

- Lose weight ? Omg , as if.

- New attitude, in a good way.

- Stay in contact with 4E/4T friends

AMIN! (:

Things gonna change.

2009-12-30T12:47:00.005+08:00

Things are gonna change any time now.
Now its only half way there.
Haven't anyone realize ?
Next thing you know, you're gone .

But , no matter what .
You'll be in my heaart.

But i hope it'll be the same.

Mental.

2009-12-30T01:58:00.002+08:00

Am i the only one who thinks alot.
Like, seriously?

When i start to think , i think deeper.
Haha, true.

Think , like really really think.

Then question myself.

Sometimes i ask myself if im crazy thinking talking to myself.

Love me

2009-12-29T18:32:00.005+08:00

Hello love.
Sorry for not updating this week. Been busy lately.
Celebrate Rieyn's belated birthday.When KL for 4 days. Results for ite courses.
So many things going on. Stress.

When to ITE tamp just now fr an interview and it was UNSUCCESSFUL .
Hahahah, I dont know how to draw la. I draw hearts and flowers. Hehe(:
Farah didnt get in too. But its okay, we've both applied for something else already.
So , right now. Dont ask which course i'm going to cause i dont know (:

I want you to know . That no matter what , i'll be here for you . (:
Even if you hate me. WAIT, not really . Hehe. Thur thick or thin. Okay ? Isy.

So what if im fat, right ?

2009-12-21T23:36:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to youuuuu
Happy birhtday to SHEERIYN *singing*
Lalalala, nice right i sing? HEHE, k wtf.

Anyways , today . Is my BESTFRIEND'S birthday .
Aka , shirieyn. Aka, Silver lights. HAHA((:

Happy birthdaay my dear. Hope our friendship would last . After all the stuff we've been through , after all those secret we've share . After all those moment and pictures we took. Countless even though its only been 1 year plus ? Haha. Anyways,
I HAVENT GIVE YOU YOUR PRESSIE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. CANNOT WAIT FR YOUR REACTION , LALA. ILY.

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BABE (:
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

2009-12-18T23:52:00.001+08:00

I SWEAR I FEEL DUMB . OMG , I NEED YOU RIEYN , NOW!
:'(

Finally letting everything out .

2009-12-17T22:31:00.003+08:00

Help.

Sitting thinking with face mask on eating ben and jerry doesnt really help '

2009-12-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

Talked about the past.

Am happy for who i am now. (:

Recently at jurong till tues. Then gonna be MIA. Dont ask why . So dont bother calling or whatver okay ? Anyways , met Nanah on sunday for lunch at Rasa 21. OMFG . I LOVE THE PRESENT , LIKE SERIOUSLY. THANK YOU SO MUCHHH ! ILY ILY ILY. OMG

Yes, thank you very much (:

Me; Nekk, i lawa tak ? (I was bored)

Nenek ; Ya allahhhhh.(Giving the WTF face )

Nadia , fira and izza all started laughing .

I love my nenek(:

Wont be around(: Till then love !

2009-12-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

One of the fav's . Anyways went out with Shirieyn fr breakfast then something happen . FUCKED UP . Then when home then went to meet Baby Abdul , Qistina and Kak ana with sister . Hang around at Tamp then head to Airport fr Earl's . STILL PISS! MF tul. Ish. Anyways. Abdul and qistina were fighting for ME !HAHAHA, im amaze. HAHA. Go watch the video in my fb. Go watch. There's two btw. Anw , meeting nanah fr lunch tmr (: CANNOT WAIT . OMG(:

I miss natasha! :( Haiz.

CHOCO♥

2009-12-08T23:03:00.002+08:00

See that face? Thats the face i give every single day .

Been sick these few days. Im so Sorry Farah if I've gotta cancel our plan . Maaf yer?

I've been having seriously bad nightmares that makes me cry.

Things change and friends leave BUT life doesn't stop for ANYBODY .

2009-12-05T00:51:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Im sorry if the previous post was depressing . Im just not myself lately.
I don't know la eh . Anyways .

Yesterday , went to Natasha's house to pass something then chilled there till like 4 eh ? Then head home with fira. BlaBlaBla.

N level result will be out on the 17 or 18 December , yup . I think so .
Not ready fr it . Well, suck it up. It done and over.

HAHA! sanggup amik gambar and show me . HAHA, iam still laughing AM ! LALALALA, go buff till it looks like Taylor lautner . OKAY !(: HAHAHA, then show me again .

Till then love (:

FUCK

2009-12-03T03:41:00.004+08:00

I NEED SOMEONE WHOM I COULD TALK TOO .

SOMEONE WHO I DON'T FEEL ASHAMED TELLING
MY DEEPEST SECRET .
SOMEONE WHO WON'T LAUGH AT MY SECRET.
FUCK THE WORLD .
LIFE A BITCH .

Seems like i couldn't take it any longer.
Maybe , patients really isn't working for me.
(Shirieyn, i know what you mean now)

Freedom.

2009-12-02T14:38:00.003+08:00

I still can't figure out myself here. Who am i really ? I only know that im not brave enough . Hating some one isn't in my dictionary unless they hurt me badly. Throwing anger , giving attitude really is not me. Sometimes i ask myself if im TOO nice. Am i ?

I want you.

2009-12-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

Okay? (:

Thank you !

2009-12-01T23:08:00.003+08:00

I would like to thank everyone for the wish .

And THANK YOU NATASHA AND SHIRIEYN for popping out infront of my door with ballons .
I look super , OMG . I havent even bathe la. Haiz , but thank youu love ! (:

Got ready and went off . I didnt know where the fuck i was going. They didnt want to tell me anything . So drop off and met Nasir and Kunal then train to YISHUN! Far , i know. But i love the PLACEE ! Pastamania.

Their Pastamania , is different from tamp. I mean the deco and everythng . I LIKEEE !(: Thank you love. Then i receive a phone call from my mother telling me my curfew ( Yes, i still got curfew. aint it sad?) . Got F***ed up , lost appetite and SUPER sad. I wanted to cry but told myself not too. My mood was totally gone. So yeah . Thanks EH!? . Plans were cancel and went to chill somewhere else.

Went to the riverside at cityhall there and sat . I like the place, it was nice.

Thank you all ( :

Drama

2009-11-26T13:21:00.002+08:00

Okay , Made cupcakes with Nat and Nanah on the 24. Pictures in her blog. HERE .
On the 25 Bbq , tak menjadi i tell you . Even though alot didnt turn up. It was fun . AND FUCKING HOT LA . Played truth or dare. HAHA , rieynnn. K , enough . Anw's , The others when home so we called afeeq and Muizz to come join us . Then , the after party started. HAHA, FUNNY SHIT SIA! I laugh till i fall and my dress got wet, cibai . Game bodoh , BETUL BODOH. Truth and dare again. Then my daddy pic me up (: Haha. He say the cupcakes we make nice ! YAY !

YAYAH , CAN WE PLEASE GO OUT AND TAKE PICTURE . ASK AFEEQ TOO IF HE WANNA JOIN.

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY NASIR. even though im not close to you .

Kemas rumah time.

Love.

2009-11-23T00:41:00.005+08:00

I would like to thank Junie Zafira for helping me (: ILY !

Shirieyn said i was clubbing material , HAHA.
I take that as a compliment that i dance well.
LOL

Prom was the boom. Even though it was in school . It was FUN ! Besides the game.
Eveything was perfect . (:
Thanks to SC ! Love you guys ! (:

This was my favorite part. Adli told us to go down if we dont wanna dance( even though i wanted to ), there was a surprise for us. And i was the first to go check it out. It was super dark going down the stairs and i saw the lane full of candle directing us to somewhere and that somewhere i saw this huge heart. I felt like crying cause its SUPER NICE , omg how i wish someone was with me . My point is , It was super nice . Thats all .

HAAH

2009-11-18T02:01:00.001+08:00

My turnnnnn (:

Kay , this is MY blog. Unfortunately Shirieyn remembers my password.

And keep bugging me to update, so i asked her to update fr me. Haha, now im updating.

Yes we are going out tomorrow, i want to buy shoes (:
We shall slowly find okay ? Stupid prom .

Went shopping with mom and dad just now at vivo.
Mom and dad fought about what im wearing , haha!
Dad is on my side, choosing accessories and stuff.
CUTE or what ? Anyways, ily mummy and daddy(:

SHIRIEYN, dont be late tomorrow . Please. Lots of place to go tauuu ! Wear something comfortable so we wont complain bout our leg aching. OKAY ! ? (:
And we'll make it happen ! Don't worry. And Yes, i'll bring my cam.

See yaaa(:

holla!

2009-11-18T02:00:00.003+08:00

Hello darla! I still remember your password, heh heh. Dear readers, our darling Choco here is one lazy bugger. She expects people to update, yet she doesn't do it herself. Huhu.

Yay, I'm going out with you later! :D Thanks for accompanying me((: Love you manyak-manyak. We shall have so much fun and take lotsa pictures okay? (Which means you have to bring your camera. Hehe.) And if I'm cranky tomorrow, smack me. Hahahahaha. And bitching session tmr eh? I feel like bitching uh. Huahuahua.

Okay, your turn to update! ;D

WithLove,

Shirieyn(:

Must i ?

2009-11-15T00:44:00.001+08:00

Till when ?

DRAMA

2009-11-13T19:05:00.004+08:00

SHIRIEYN and GEIK MISSING

Drama.

I love drama. The best cca i've ever joined . All those craziest funniest stupid moment are countless. The best. I remember EVERYONE ( seniors ) quitting their cca just to make a Drama Club. And it was hilarious . Then came the sec 1 which was Maverick and others. Fun fun fun. And we bonded real good, till now. Times with Edwin was a killer yet fun. He could be a bitch sometimes but its all worth it.

Anyway, the party was a blast. Had fun . The speech was great but i didnt cry like SOME ONE DID. HAHA. Well, my eye went watery twice but didnt cry . Cause someone ruin the whole thing.Whatever it is , I LOVE DRAMA CLUB.

After the party, went to tamp. With Rieyn Nanah and Nat. The who's next.
Then went home. Swimming again . Tonight going again . OMG.
4 nights in a row. Tsk.

Planned BBQ With Maverick fr US. More info Call me.

2009-11-12T01:21:00.003+08:00

HELLO PEOPPPPPPPLE .

I baked CAKE today with nadia love and it was PERFECT!
till, the FUCKING ICING ruin it. :( Let the picture explain

Still it taste GOOOD, but TOO sweet. Will make better one
next timee right nadiaaaaa?!

Just went we thought we were experts our cake turn like ,
that as you can seee. TA DA! :(

Can't wait for tomorrow farewell party( fuck, what to wear ), going back to school ! Wow.
I miss everyone. Get ready for lots of hugs . Hmmmm.

Went swimming yesterday and today , to exercise.
And Zul say its USELESS. It wont help. Wow, thanks fr the tip eh ?
Pissed!

Okay , its 1.35am. I guess im gonna sleep .
Goodnight, SWEEETDREAMS.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox ILYm

Ta-da!

2009-11-11T03:33:00.001+08:00

Thank you (:

Hello

2009-11-09T23:52:00.004+08:00

Okay, its been days since i blog. Pls ignore the previous post. SHIRIEYN has no life , ILY though :B

It been years.
months.
Days.
Hours.
Minute.
Seconds.

Anyways, I've been worrying bout my Nlevel result. Now then i realize that during that period, i've been slacking. OMG. Even though i studied. Stupid me.
What if i dont pass?
What if i dont get it ?
What if i dont get what i expect?

Fuck man.

Been having lots of thinking, and i always turn to Shirieyn . The best ! HAHA :D
But theres something you dont want to share and hide those feeling to yourself.
Well , yeah . I have alot. But , i only manage to tell to 2 or 3 people i dearly trust.
You cant always keep it to yourself now can you ? Choose to tell people who you think you can trust. Been there fr you by hook or crook.

K, wth am i babbling about ? Tsk, Choose your friends wisely.
I LOVE SHIRIEYN! (:

;D

2009-11-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

HELLO. Heh heh. Shirieyn here. Haha, Choco is sooo gonna kill me. Anyway, Chocs, I miss you. Huhu. Okbye.

xoxo

M.

2009-11-04T23:18:00.006+08:00

Hello .

Im fat. Im ugly.
Dont judge my pictures.
I like being myself.
Hee ;)

It's only 12 plus and it feels like its 2 or 3 .
O's are finishing soon. Yay, plan plan plan.
It sucks when you got nothing to do during the holidays .

Anyways, just came back from perth as you can see. I miss the weather even though it makes my skin F*cking dry . Its super cold but i love it. I even wore sleeveless (: Fats! Haha.
I love him too ! Sorry picture cant be posted. Nanah , rieyn and aishah says his cutee. Well, his mineee !(: Daddy approve to it too. Single ehh, not attch :)

By the way , nowadays i feel empty.
I don't know. I feel like shit
Need someone who can blend the rainbow above me and shoot it in my veins
Cause my heart has a lack of colour.

Ciao.

M.

2009-11-04T00:22:00.004+08:00

Maybe i've not ready to wake up
Maybe im scared.

When am i gonna realize that fairytale doesn't exist ?

What if i wait , and wait and i don't get what i want ?

Emo shit.

Kay , im sorry. Bye.

GOOD LUCK! (:

2009-10-22T21:22:00.002+08:00

HELLO !

Thank to all who sent me off.

I see LOTSSSSSSSSS of hot guys, OMG. I can just stare at them.

How i wish i could just fold them into my pocket and bring them home for MYSELF.

Ish. Anw, weather here is cold. Windy. Tomorrow, we driving up to i don't know where.

Its a 6 hour drive. Anw, i miss you all. I'll try to buy souvenir for you all kay ? TRY.

No promises. Lots of nice SHOE , mahal you know. URGH.€

Bye la.

Having fun (:

ILY .

Till then .

2009-10-20T13:26:00.003+08:00

Hello Dearest,
I'll be flying off in about 3 or 4 hours time.
Toooooooo, PERTH ! Yay, finally a holiday for me.
I'm sorry i can't be there when you're having your O's.
But my prayers will be with you to do your best.
I know you can do it. (: Ilya(:
I'll try to update there if i can.
And i shall bring home a cute Aussie
guy for myself :D LOL (If i can get any)
I be home on the 2 Nov.
See ya loves.

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR O'S
All the best.

Friends

2009-10-16T03:51:00.004+08:00

Good morning Readers.

It's like 413am now .
And im still thinking what im gonna do till Jan2010.

Exercise?
Learn to use my lovely D90 like a Pro .
Go out , take nice pictures.
LOSE WEIGHT.
Work ? HELL NO (:
Party with friends after their O's.
Make more friends.
Earn easy money from Parents/ Relatives (:
Find Prince Charming.
SERIOUSLY, I NEED TO FUCKING CUT DOWN ON FOOD.

Is there anything else that i'm missing ? Tag me.

I miss you bitches .

I miss school :(

2009-10-15T01:42:00.001+08:00

Hoping
Waiting
Praying

You are the one.

Wow.

2009-10-14T05:23:00.003+08:00

I feel so KENTAL. This would be my first time watching this movie.
DAMNNN, ITS GOOD. I cried watching this . You need more than a packet of tissue
watching this. Now, its 5.30 and i can't sleep .

Bye

Regret much ?

2009-10-13T00:42:00.005+08:00

Meet Farah for a movie ; 500 days of summer .
Okay laa the movie. Funny.
Finally went out with a schoolmate.
Imh so much . HAHA:D (No, i aint les)PLS.
Went to Mac eat then one WHOLE group of Mat and Minah, sat beside us.
We didnt feel comfortable so we ate our bugger and tapau our fries to
Mac Cafe. Took pic. After that went to T3 to buy Crocs, for PERTH babyyyy.(:
Went Parkway bought nothing you should know (:
Hehe, Btw .
I leaving on the 20 Oct will be back on the 2 Nov. I try to update there .
GOODLUCK FOR O'S MY DEAR FRIENDS(:
YOU will be miss. (:

Ouh, Happy birthday Tarun.

Your smile

2009-10-11T00:41:00.001+08:00

I LOOK UGLY, AS ALWAYS. JUST TO SHOW MY NEW HAIR.
BYE.

DO COMMENT(:

Too hard

2009-10-10T01:27:00.002+08:00

Hello dear friends.

Nlevel is over, ENJOY. Not really. I got nothing to do . I SHALL EXERCISE! (Not comfirm)
HAAH. Imya:(

It's finally over. WOW , four years in bedok view. And now. Im done. Wow. Been lots of UPS and DOWNS in school . Imy all. Seriously, i will. I'll miss you 4NT10. Firdaus and BERWIN.
Of all people, i will miss him more. Drama, SC board, which i've serve for 3 1/2 years. Idk, just gonna miss everyone.

Looking back to sec2 two, wow. Its DIFFERENT . VERY. We went different direction.
whatever, ilya. Thats all.

Ouh, i found this msg i saved in my old phone.

Someone loves you

Misses you

Need you

worries bout you

is lonely without you

guess who ? ?

LEX SUA, jgn feeling feeling. G tido

Arwah Shamir. Sec 2 .

:'( :'( :'(

Okay, i wont cry anymore.

I wish , there was a photo of everyone .

FLY

2009-10-09T01:06:00.003+08:00

N level is done. Hair is done. Shirieyn say like minah :(
SAD SIA.

I dont know what to update.
BIG THANKS TO SHA FR TEMANING ME (:
Ily(:

SAD!

FUCK

2009-10-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

SUPER BAD HEADACHE! :'(

I hate this feeling !

Pms.
Go away

You

2009-10-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

I don't know why , but i feel like crying.
Something is not right . I know . But what ?
I hate my life, fucking hell.
I don't really know what's up with me.
i wish you were here, imaginary friend.
i want to talk to you.

When will be the next time i see you guys ?
After thus im no longer coming back . This sucks.
Why can't olevel be faster ! :(

I would like to apologize if i'm too sensitive in anyway.
I'm just like this, accept me for who i am .

You, again.

2009-10-05T23:28:00.002+08:00

Something about you is so addictive.
But sometimes, i feel like killing you so bad.
Sometimes, i want you by my side.

I hate you.

Feelings

2009-10-02T02:14:00.004+08:00

Ignore the picture.

Omg , im blogging. I know im not suppose to but , well i'm bored.

I hate the feeling of wanting something we dont need, for now.
It's so irritating that its in your mind the whole day .
All you can think of is just having that thing.
And you cant stop thinking of it.
Sometimes, you get desperate for it .
You know what i mean ?
I hate this feeling.

Brother and best friend ? Hmmmmmmmmm.

Now, i can't sleep . I need someone who i can talk to. Who'll understands me . DAMN IT.
I wish upon a star to have a robot best friend who understand EVERYTHING i have to say. Support me in anyway . With a human heart and brains. I have friends who i can talk to , but sometimes im shy of what i have to say . Idk, im sure im not the only one.

Why cant our live in a world of fairytale ? Every girls dream .
No problem that needed to be solves.
No embarrassing moment to hide from.
Everything was perfect.
Friends, family, HIM.

I hate seeing MY friends not in good terms or whatever.
I hate being the middle person .
I love you BOTH. You'll i've got.
Do something about it .
Ily guys (: Please.
To you.

Seems like you cherish your Love more than your friend you've known for all this years.
I've been there for you, you been there for me . We didnt have anything special, but we had memories. Good ones, Funny ones. Im not angry at you, but im just saying my thoughts. I understand you situation though. I cant be angry for that. But , well. Idk.
To you, i don't think you even read my blog. Tsk .

PMS.PMS.PMS.PMS.PMS

FIRDAUS AMIN ! GET WELL SOON !
GOOD LUCK FOR N TO EVERYONE.

HeeHee

2009-09-27T23:29:00.003+08:00

Hello , i need to tell you'all something.
Maybe.
Maybee.
MAYBEEE

i wont be updating for the next two weeks. O o . Haha, lame.

N level laa. Okay?Understand aites?! But if i do you're lucky.

WHEEE~
Ciao.
♥

Days

2009-09-25T00:32:00.003+08:00

It helps alot if you could just shut up and listen .

I've try my best to help, instead you choose to ignore.

And you come running back to me when you need me .

I've help you ALOT. Do something for me will ya?

I don't know what you're trying to say .

Whatever it is,

Don't come crying to me with full of regrets.

Cause i did try to help.

wishing

2009-09-24T00:21:00.003+08:00

Dad Side.

Mom Side.

Its been a long time since i updated my blog.

Anyway, first day of raye was SUPER kecoh. Since my grandparents were at my place this year.
They didnt stay long . They didnt brought enough clothes for Raye. So yeah. Forgive and Forget.
Cried. Took hundreds of pictures. Go to my picture, not album. If you want to see the pictures.

Before raye, had career seminar. Took alot of pictures. Again, all in facebook. Its was okay .
But dorang SEBOK JER. (:

My dear friend shamir passed away 22 sep 2009 7.30am.
Not close to him, used to .
Good guy. Cried. Regret not going to funeral. Stupid me .

Went to my aunts house for raye just now . Watch OLD super OLD video . I WAS SO CUTE, trust me, i am. They say my mouth never change. Haha. Saw late grandfather, kept quite holding back my tears. I kept thinking , why didnt i cherish those moment last time. Hais.
On the way back, we(siblings) were talking about him and tears were rolling down my cheeks .
Imy so much :(

Im done, School sucks . As always. No mood. 12 days to the next paper. BYE!

2009-09-15T21:44:00.002+08:00

HELLO( : ]

Okay, lame.

Anyways, had Nlevel practical just now. Haiz, it was SUPER EASY! Hahaha. Confident sak Choco.
Anyways, i manage to do the graph the way it is suppose to be. And i finish in less than an hour.
Check check check like 4 or 5 times. Talked to Mdm Shikin, waited, check again. Slept for AWHILE. And, time was up. I was super happy. ((: It was easy, that's all. Alhamdulillah!

Bukee with Farah , Dearest. Went to library after that, FINALLY. I've been wanting to borrow a book. Tomorrow Career Day, not many coming, CONFIRM. Zzzz.

Perangai cam TUT ! Hmm. Lalala(:

Ittmy.